to be happy always :)

Reality Check.

2010-11-24T11:53:00.000+08:00

US editor and journalist Herbert B. Swope once said ” I cannot give you the formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure- which is: Try to please everybody.”

And then, Abraham Lincoln's words ring through. "You can please some of the people some of the time, but you can't please all of the people all of the time."

Time for a reality check, Joyce.

Checked.

My Heart Hurts So Badly

2010-11-24T03:44:00.000+08:00

For a good part of my life in NTU, I've spent with DSA. First as a member, then a PR Officer, then Chairman for our nationals then Vice-Chairman for the club.

In just about 2 months, I'll be leaving for Vietnam for six months and my eyes are filling up with tears of sadness. Over the past semester, I've gotten closer and closer to DSA, to my committee, to our members... and it pains me so much that I'll be leaving my family away from home for so long... I won't get to witness all our juniors grow into more beautiful dancers, I won't get to attend endless DSA meetings in person with DSA Kallang Waves each time a topic is concluded, I won't get to watch performances, I won't get to compete with my friends, I won't get to be in all the photos, I won't get to go for all the DSA outings, I won't get to chair meetings, I won't get to sit at the booth and cut out numbers, I won't get to take photos for workshops, I won't get to teach, I won't get to encourage the juniors, I won't get to laugh with all my loves, I won't get to hug everyone, I won't get to get drunk with everyone and then be taken care of later.

Let me stop here.

My heart hurts so badly.

Beautiful...

2010-10-03T01:38:00.000+08:00

Because we should treasure the life that we have and the love that we receive for everything that they are worth...

"One doctor told me, you may think that when she's gone you'll be relieved, but you'll be sad when she's gone. Because (now) there's still the human being here, there's still somebody you talk to and she knows what you're saying and you'll miss that. Well, I don't know, I haven't come to that, but I think I probably will because it's now been two years, two years and four months. It's become a part of my life."

An excerpt from MM Lee's remarks on his wife to the New York Times

I suddenly miss my Smelly so much :( Really looking forward to Jakarta in 17 days... :)

One Helluva Week It Has Been!

2010-10-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

This week has been so hectic, it's not even mildly entertaining. I've had to put off so many important things to attend other important things, it's been crazy! It's already Week 5 at school, but everything still feels a little unsettled. I guess I've been trying diligently to keep up with my readings for the non-math involved modules, but it's not turning out too well! :| Plus, I'm taking Statistics and Accounting this semester, not a very good idea for me considering I haven't touched (in my opinion) "Advanced Math" since what, secondary four? Tutorials and what-have-you-not for those subjects are currently a jumbled up mess. Nevermind, it will get sorted out soon-ish! (Hopefully)

I'm really counting down to recess week and my short trip to Jakarta (although I foresee myself bringing along my textbooks to study, lol) to see Smelly :) Hopefully by then, all the wrongs would have been put right, all the misunderstandings cleared and all the peace and tranquility put back into place. I know I know, we all can't please everyone... but we can always try. Hmm :]

But in the meantime, since I'm so over this totally stressful week, I shall treat myself to a Caramel Baileys with Milk, and a round of Papaya Farm before I'm off to bed. Good night everybody :)

Good Things Come To Those Who Wait :)

2010-09-13T04:00:00.010+08:00

About eight months after it struck me in my head and heart AGAIN, and tired of fighting and fending off the feelings that were obviously there, it finally happened. Friday the 13th will be the day to remember. When I experienced happiness, awe, shock, love, craziness. It's very strange that some people say that there is such a thing as a honeymoon period, and perhaps some might say it is a little premature to say this, but nine months on, life still seems to be majorly dreamy and happy. My heart still beats that much faster in his presence and I still have the same crush on him that I did when I first met him :) Okay, save the mushy stuff. I sound like some 15 year old who is majorly infatuated with some boy :p Only that I'm 22.

So anyway, Friday the 13th is the day that is supposedly ominous and not exactly great for doing auspicious things, but not for evil people like me! *does evil laugh impersonation* :) In fact it was a beautiful sunny day that warranted a big smile and getting up uber early for an excursion to Universal Studios ala Final Destination style! :)

We were supposed to meet at 9.30am at Harbourfront MRT but as usual, I was late (yes, I am taking responsibility for my actions) and in the end, I only got to meet Smelly at 9.40am. Of course, he didn't let me off easily since I was supposed to be punctual because I had a beautiful watch that he gave me as a post-Aussie holiday/birthday present! :) Hehe. We then caught the bus into Sentosa (RWS8) from outside Vivocity, which is really very convenient. We managed to snag a seat on the bus and Smelly proceeded to tell me about the odds of playing Big/Small and was doing serious calculations with percentages and all, in preparation for our little Casino stint that we were going to fit into our itinerary because of our previous good luck-ish episode at the game in Genting. (No, you do not have permission to call the problem gambling hotline now. hmph)

On The Bus to Resorts World!

It was a rather surreal feeling actually getting to go to Resorts World and Universal Studios because I've been meaning to go there for SUCH a long time, but always had to put plans aside because of work or school! Going to Universal Studios also meant another shot at happy kiddy times that I last experienced when I went to Disneyland in Tokyo! The best part was that I got to go with Smelly, because he's great company and we're both very game about taking crazy pictures and doing crazy things! :)

Hurray for Universal Studios! :)

Our Tickets to Happyland! :)

Getting down from the bus, we proceeded to a secret place where we put our bags down and oohed and aahed at the sheer beauty surrounding us :) It was so pretty, comfortable and such a lovely place! :) Thank you for the treat and the surprise dear :) It was a truly wonderful experience :) I hope that we will certainly make my way back there in the future! :) Then, we headed over to our destination of the day while eating a breakfast of Purple Tapioca Chips from our trip to Bintan, Water and Wang Wang Biscuits, yummm! :) Junk food love is forever! :)

On the way to Universal, we walked through beautiful passageways and pop-art art pieces featured in Opera Gallery, one of my favourite haunts that is also located in the Takashimaya building. When I get insanely madly rich one day, I shall commission a piece of sculpture! :) Or if I don't, I'll make something that remotely resembles the sculptures! :p After more oohing and ahhing, we reached our final destination!!! :) Crazy happy!!! :) Here on, I'll let the pictures do the talking!!! :))

along the amazing surround sound underpass connector!

en route with the beautiful ceiling of festive hotel

going through the gantry of universal studios!

blending in very nicely with the car!

familial love with the animals of madagascar!

awesome possum penguin merrygoround

he dares to take his hands off the pole! i like! :)

R21: doing a pole dance move on a children's carousel
tsk tsk tsk ;)

cuddly loveeee :)

i got scolded for smacking this lady hippo's butt! :(

fire breathing dragon...
and an extinguisher??? hahaha

woah, fierce fierce ;)

such a great show! :)

pretty castle :) + pretty smelly :p

my friends call me the...
singaporean princess :D

a postcard picture :)

facebook queen, i am :D

shrekky 4D glasses!

my home :) because...

smelly, you take me far far away :)

yay yay whee whee for funny hats! :)

chinny drilling :p "stop torturing meeee!!!" hahhaa

with charlie chaplin! :)

wearing more coolio headgear! :)
featuring me as a egyptian wannabe...
and smelly as a spartan warrior! :)

just before a ride!

in an indoor ferris wheel! *squeals* :))

acting like the bored "older brother"

the over-enthusiastic "younger sister" lol

DONKEYYYY :D

smelly make a more convincing donkey!
i just look like a weird rabbit wannabe. lol

smellllyyy.

the donkey show! :)

hahaha. high socks. and shoes :p

this turkey drumstick was supposed to be our lunchtime snack :(

our eventual yummy lunch that smelly went off to
buy while i queued! :) hotdogssss! :)
*note never to eat just before a seemingly harmless ride*

hurhur :| what was i thinking. lol

managed to persuade smelly to sit in the wet zone! :)

reminds me of sports day! *does a huge cheer* :D

bad boys bad boys! :)

charlie's angel with four charlies :D

this picture gives meaning to "knuckles turned white" haha

slightly apprehensive smiles :3

relieved, slightly crazy smiles :3

who's the egyptian king and queen huhhh....?

finally, ONE normal picture. lol

look, ma. my eyes are big okayy! *indignant egyptian face*

me and my llama :D

the ride we took three times! :)

mini-us! :)

reminds me of poly days in the effects studio. only cooler x 10000!

looking very calm in the storm :)

hey there, james bond + speedboat/sampan! :p

inappropriately happy X)

yoohoo sexyyyy!!! :)

yoohoo sexierrrr!!! :))

Battlestar Sleeplatica *yawn*

a star wherever he goes :)

lol, had to force smelly to take this picture! ;D

oh yeah *wiggles eyebrows* ;)

oh yeah yeah yeah ;) *whistle* hahaha

our first experience being driven by our ahmad :)
in actual fact, *pouts* i didn't get to drive the car :(

pandas + getting-there-panda + future panda ;)

our last mascot for the day!

That is a WHOLE load of pictures omg. Hope you enjoyed them and our very normal poses. lol. Anyway, you don't see any pictures of me puking here because HAHA, I didn't. At all! Even on the spinning teacups! :) What a good Joyce you are, Joyce! :) Anyway, in case you were wondering, the queues were long, but it was fun and I think that the best part about amusement parks are the bits when you can chat with your friends and laugh and gossip about the day's events, ooh and ahh at cute kids, take "sian" face pictures, laugh and gossip more about the expression on people's faces as they prepare for the ride, laugh and gossip EVEN more about couple clothes, family clothes, etc., Sooo the next time you complain about the queues, think alternatively about the fact that without queues, all the fun little memorable snippets wouldn't happen! :)

An Entire Family Clad in Purple!!! :) Super Cute!

Me Acting Wimpy because of the Spinning Tea Cups Ride :(

Insisting that I'm taller! :p

DiaperBoy!!! :D

spending some time with a yawning game! lol

Well, I'm proud to say that we finished all the rides and viewing all the attractions save the last one that we couldn't find, and also bought a potion bottle filled with our mixed up drink of Sprite and Ice lemon Tea as a souvenir! :) I was really over-the-moon because I'm such a sucker for overpriced paraphernalia that looks cute, interesting or bears the name of the place that I've visited! :D We went into the Universal Store to check out more overpriced paraphernalia and decided that we could save the money for better things so we took sneak pictures of us "wearing" the Universal tees and caps and hugging Universal tee-clad bears! :)

Potionnn! :D

HOLLYWOOD

i likey that fluffy white bear :)

Photographs Are The Best Souvenirs!

Touristy Shot of The Universal Globe :)

After taking the last few pictures and bidding Universal goodbye, we went into this giganormous Hershey chocolate shop, drawn by the crazy amounts of chocolate lining the walls. We were greeted by a door lady who gave us a Hershey Kiss and was pleasantly surprised when she did so! :) The shop smelt of chocolate and we spied a Hershey mascot who got away before we had a chance to take a picture with him! It's really innovative what these marketing people can get up to! Hershey coin banks, Reese's Buttercup cushions, Giant Hershey bars... Nice! :) I love creativity and expression ESPECIALLY when it's got to do with food yumsies! :) And then, we entered the heavenly realm of popcorn madness. Looking wide eyed at all the popcorn, I quite fancied the caramel flavoured ones, considering I love caramel, but was sorely disappointed that there was no Salty popcorn! Come on Salty popcorn lovers!!! We need to rally around our cause! :p We left the shop without any popcorn though either because A. Smelly tricked me by telling me that we would come back the next day to buy some (Didn't happen) or B. I was too hungry and tired to think about eating popcorn. :3 Hahaha

HUGE Hershey's Bar! :)
Melts in Your Mouth...
If You Can Even Fit The Whole Bar In! ;)

Popcornnnnn! Come to Meeee! :D

Plants VS. Zombies - Nice Flower

Plants Vs. Zombies - Nasty Flower (Better to Kill Zombies!)

We went back to our secret place to bathe and change for dinner while resting up a teeny bit after the day's activities. It felt good to actually be able to lie down and have a few moments of shut-eye! :) Very refreshing it was! Minutes later, we were up and about Energiser Bunny style and went for dinner. BUT of course, before that, we made a stopover the Casino. So here's the deal. I'm Singaporean and Smelly is Malaysian. That means that I have to pay a whopping $100 to get into the Casino and Smelly doesn't. So we gambled Messenger/Bookie style. Lol. I got to decide the amount ($20), which table (3rd from the Right) and big/small (Small)! :) Smelly wanted to put $50 at first, but it's such a high risk and when gambling, it is never good to be greedy. It is only okay to be greedy for hugs and kisses. Lol :p I waited in eager anticipation (no that's not actually true) outside while he went in all cool gambler swagger and all to place our bet. Super hardcore right, oh dear ;) About 20 minutes later, he came through the gantries, face masking all emotion, very nonchalant, high roller gambler style... and flashed $40 in my face! :) Yay!!! We won $20! :)) That's a great discount for dinner! :p Smelly kept telling me that it was my lucky day and kept grinning at me. Haha, something was soooo up ;) More on how suspicious he was in just a bit :)

To The Casino and Beyond!!!

Happy About Our Earnings at the Casino! :)

After walking around searching for a restaurant to eat at and watching a short musical fountain showcase at the Lake of Dreams, we finally settled on a Japanese store called RamenPlay :) What really attracted me to the place was the great attention to detail in the decor on the store's signage that looked like a blend of Indonesian Wayang Kulit Cutouts and Lino Print. It serves as a nice piece of inspiration for my boomerang! :) So we went in and got a cosy little corner table for two :) It was then that Smelly told me to take out "Conversations - First Word", a photo album that he lovingly compiled of all our memories together :) Yup, the day before our Universal excursion, Smelly told me to bring along the album book present because he had a story to tell me and I was like, "Okay" because I was too excited and keeping quiet and pretending to be nonchalant was the only way to hide my bubbling craziness that was madly erupting inside of me *crazy eyes*. So I brought the album along and just before we left our secret place, Smelly told me to bring the album along to dinner! :D *more crazy eyes* Of course, wanting to build the anticipation and also because I was hungry, I insisted on ordering and eating first. Lol :p

taking a picture at the lake of dreams!

beautiful patterns on the signboard of ramenplay

our order chit at ramenplay :)

a hungry man is an angry man :|

ordering foooood! :)

condiments that smelly almost finished!

free tako pachi balls that we got because it was my lucky day!
haha, no. because I had my POSB debit card. lol :p

yummu yummmyyy! :)

acting all kawaii ;)

yummylicious unagi egg tang hoon thing! :)

stuffing my mouth with tako pachi! :O

yayyy! :) i finished everything! :)

Anyway, just in case you haven't heard me go on and on about it, this is a Brief History of "Conversations - First Word": It was my birthday present from Smelly that was presented to me by my friends while eating dinner at Nando's in JB because Smelly was in Langkawi for a company holiday. Kaikai and Smelly had an elaborate plan to pass it to me, which I thoroughly enjoyed because I knew something was up and the package was for me and I kept asking Kaikai about to make her feel uncomfortable, lol. So anyway, I first read it when I sat in the train on the way back with Ethan and Sukyee and have been reading it every other night because it is simply beautiful and touching :) OKAY SO, after reading the book many a time, I realised that there was a story running on the left side of the album! :) Then, since the title of the album was "Conversation - First Word"... I was happy because I thought that there would be a second album called, "Conversation - Two Words" and then later partly amused because I did a Ted and was critical about how it was supposed to be spelled "First Words" instead of "First Word" and was wondering why Smelly's English had deteriorated. LOL. And then I realised, that maybe there was a secret message... so I read the first words of every page on the right side only, which didn't make sense. Somehow I didn't think of reading the left side, for various obscure reasons. Now really, it is no wonder they say that advertisements are always placed on the right side because the human eye tends to concentrate there!!! And then, when I turned to the last page, which was a letter, I thought it felt poofy! So I asked Smelly if there was something underneath. AND HE SAID NO. So I was like, Okay! And left it at that, because the letter was taped to the book and I didn't want to tear it!

Me with The Album!!! :)

(I'm not going to post closeup pictures of the book or its pages here because I'm selfish like that! :p lol)

SO imagine my complete utter shock and "what the floofs" and "oh my gosh-es" when he told me to look at the book even closer in the restaurant, and gave me a hint after I couldn't get what was up and what the "story" was after flipping through the book twice. WHAT HAPPENED was that he had concealed the message IN the first word of every " " apostrophe'd super sweet phrases on the LEFT side of the book, which asked me to be his ahem *hehe, don't want to say la, shy* ... :) AND THEN, he turned to the last page where the letter was, opened the tape, and revealed... ANOTHER letter. I knew there was something behind it! Lol. I knew it I knew it :p Okay, I can't really remember anything after I read the letter other than that I was laughing and crying and not responding to his "so yes or no?" questions. Hahaha. All this when I was actually the silly one! :) I mean, it's no wonder he kept asking me at random times, "yes or no?"!!! Lol. I didn't manage to give him an answer straight away... but I'm sure you can guess what my answer was! :) Especially since this answer was met with our first **** :) and also considering that this is the same person that I've been love-whining to everyone about for the past 1.5 years. Lol. But anyway, I also wanted to tell him later because I pre-empted this (*smug face*, lol) and prepared a little present that I wanted to give to him that held the answer!!! :) But cannot la, too eager, so I gave it to him later :) Hehe, anyway here are a few snapshots of my devastated face! lol :)

i thought that he told me to bring the book, because
he was going to slot something inside to "ask me"!

argh! apparently my guess was wrong!!!


smelly was more ingenious, thoughtful and sweet! :)

cry baby :))

the hidden letter/message that was with me all along :)

our first official picture together :))

After that, I couldn't stop giggling and laughing and crying and stopping momentarily to give spontaneous hugs to smelly while we were walking along back to our secret place :) hehe, after that we ended the day before heading back to our secret place with a lift ride in a beautiful Swarovski-fied lift! :)

Lol, ignore the faces! Concentrate on the crystals!!! :))

the pretty pop art pieces :)

The next day, after drinking a lovingly prepared yummy chinchin made milo-in-a-potionbottle breakfast drink, we headed back home, using the lovely Sentosa monorail! :) But of course, not before we made our way through the very cinematic underpass again! :)

through the underpass we go!


on the monorail :)

eating or drinking is not allowed... *guilty face* :)

Well... it's been exactly a month since that wonderful day :) and here, I just want to thank you, my dearest official (*heehe*) boyfriend for loving me :) , for making me laugh :) , for bickering with me over silly things :) , for taking all my nonsense :) , for being a bit nonsensical :) , for giving in to me during that time of the month, hahaha :) , for our super fun adventures :) and for just being you, my wildest dream come true :)

:) If there was ever a day I could live all over again, it would be the day I stepped into the dance studio at Nanyang House for my first DSA lesson :) Because that day, was the day I first met you :) But then again, even if i had met you at another time, in another place, i would have still fallen for you :p hehe :)

Happy First Month Smelly... I love you, loved you and will always love you :)

to my partner, my best friend and my boyfriend :)

Another Question! :)

2010-08-26T02:49:00.002+08:00

The other day, I asked Ethan, Sukyee and Duy during our DSA Handover "Meeting" about what MRT trains in Singapore are powered by and how do they use that source of power. After doing some research, Electrical and Electronic Engineering student, Ethan came back with an answer for me. Today, I have two new questions! :) They're a little silly, but I feel, are interesting and rather debatable questions! :)

#1
"Do you think that Animals would prefer to be housed in a zoo where love, care, medicine, shelter, safety and food are provided for them OR do you reckon that they would prefer to roam freely in the wild where they are exposed to the elements and unknown danger, but get the freedom to do whatever they want and not be gawked at?"

#2
"I wonder if Animals in the Zoo feel that they are more privileged than Animals in the Wild! What do you think?"

#3
"Do Animals also adhere to Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs?"

What If YOU Were An Animal?

Have I Told You Lately that I Love You?

2010-08-22T11:15:00.000+08:00

Often in a relationship, we tend to neglect one another thinking that we have an entire lifetime to make up for time lost in the present. Or maybe we're so consumed with our own personal lives and individual growth that we nary have the time to drop a message or show our appreciation for our better half. But what happens if one day, your other half just disappears from your life? Some things like true love is hard to come by and just isn't that easily replaceable. This morning, I came across an article on Facebook about Marriage that makes for a good reflecting read. Granted, most of us aren't married now, but lets all keep this for the day when we've all been in a relationship for a long time and start to drift and wander apart from each other, both physically and emotionally. We should never underestimate the power of words, touch and connection as we will read later on in the story, so unless you're hardwired to be physically awkward or allergic around your loved one, reach out to touch him or her before all you get to feel is the cold flesh of a person that once was, but forever now a memory.

Marriage

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

By Stephanie Halmilton

Cute Things Come in Threes! :)

2010-08-15T01:13:00.003+08:00

So I just finished watching Over The Hedge, a movie that I've been meaning to watch for quite some time but never ever got down to! It is such a heartwarming story, and of course, like all cartoons, brought tears to my eyes. But then as I was watching the movie, I also noticed that the cutest of cartoon characters come in threes with oh-so-cute-I-so-want-to-squish-you voices! :) Anyway, here are three examples of movieland's awesome threesomes!

Aliens from Toy Story 3

Peas in a Pod from Toy Story 3

The baby Hedgehogs from Over The Hedge

Awwww :) Aren't they so cute and lovable? <3 <3 <3

Bolster/Lobster

2010-08-03T03:31:00.001+08:00

You know, as I was looking at this picture, a weird thought came to mind. That when you flip the "B" and the "L" in "BoLster", it will become "LoBster" :) Yum :)

Outnumbered!

2010-08-02T19:42:00.001+08:00

On my way to Bali, I was scrolling through the in-flight entertainment on KLM Airways and discovered a rather interesting British family comedy series known as Outnumbered. The story features a family of five, with mummy, daddy, two boys and one adorable girl. Well, there was only one episode but this episode totally warmed my heart! Furthermore, in my opinion, the girl rather looks like Hermoine Granger or Emma! A miniature version. My favourite part of the episode was when she pointed her finger at her mother and accused her of being a “murderer”. In a much-to-die-for cute British accent. It got me chuckling rather loudly in the plane.

Have a good evening everyone! :)

About Choices

2010-07-21T00:04:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, when you give people options to choose from or choices to make, there would always be a choice that you would favour and you would want them to pick. Inevitably, if you do this, as I learned, you need to be prepared for disappointment.

Lets say you give a person Choice A and Choice B and you are just hoping and hoping and hoping that the person would choose Choice A, and lets just say the person knows that it would mean the world to you if he chooses Choice A.

But even with that knowledge, the person chooses Choice B instead.

What do you do then? How would you react? I suppose, being a mature adult, you would respect the person's decision and make the best out of it. But even mature adults have feelings, and I guess you would feel disappointed and possibly hurt that the person didn't choose the option that you were wishing for him to.

I'm disappointed and that's about it. But Joyce, it's no big deal so just get over it.

Up In The Sky

2010-07-14T03:23:00.001+08:00

So I have a real penchant for high places. I like looking up at the sky and looking at the stars or the clouds or the random bird and I really like being in the sky, whether I'm strapped to a parachute, in a pseudo hot-air balloon or sitting down on a high roof or platform and dangling my feet off the edge. Maybe it's the breeze and the cool air, or maybe it's the quiet, but there's just so many things about high places that allow you to be at one with yourself and really rejuvenate your senses.

My most recent trip to Bali, I decided to snap loads of pictures while looking up. And I was amazed to discover a great many beautiful things and patterns that I had previously not noticed. The leaves on the trees, the form of the clouds and of course the intricate tiles and paintings that spread across the ceilings of temples and buildings. It was a pretty good and personal encounter sans the dull neck ache that accompanied the experience, but overall, a wonderful feast for my eyes! :)

My dad bought a new 3D kite while we were there and I can't wait to go fly it! Maybe I shall do that on my birthday weekend! :) And if the kite doesn't fly, I shall buy myself 2 balloons! One to let go and one to keep. Call me weird, but I always feel like I need two of something! So that I can keep one in pristine condition, and use the other. Especially my stationery like my notebooks and special erasers and pencils and my Hello Kitty parity products! :) All for keepsake's sake.

Anyway, it's such a horror uploading the photos into iPhoto! There's just so many! But I can't wait to put them up and actually do a photo travelog. I don't picture up my posts, and maybe I should start before my blog gets boring! But first, it's time to head to bed. Thanks slide, for keeping me company for a little bit today and allowing me to seek solace. It's comforting to know that after all this time, you're still there for the same ole' same ole' quiet time together... you, me and the pretty sky :)

whines :)

2010-07-13T14:02:00.001+08:00

hello hello hello! :) this is a seemingly happy whining-type post. Strange, because for some reason, although I am very happy and glad to be back home, I am also experiencing a never-seen-never-experienced before post-holiday blues, trauma type of syndrome. You know, concrete buildings and concrete people in an even more concrete jungle doesn't cut it for me when I've been basking in the glories of animals everywhere, cute friendly kids, being in high places, flying around in the skies, crashing waves, splashing around in seawater, serene temples, powdery sand and being a rupiah millionaire.

*happy sigh* :)

Ah, anyway, back to whining.

So i have to lament the lost of the all-hailed Adobe Creative Suites along with the unwarranted crash of my macbook. I currently feel a sense of digital creative stagnation because I can no longer photoshop my breasts to be that of a larger size. Oh phooey. How do girls/some guys even do that anyway?! Spam the bloat and contour tools? (Not that any bloating or countouring could make my breasts seemingly bigger. I'm just saying. Okay, can you please close that tab on your Firefox browser and stop checking out my boobs on Facebook? Thanks.) No really, I need to get photoshop back on my computer NOW so that I can put together digital masterpieces to be loved and awed by all, but until then, all my digital projects have come to a stand still. Yes Ethan, you will get your CAC scrapbook page when I get my photoshop! Oh just to clarify, by digital masterpieces, I meant, website designs, t-shirt designs and a scrapbook page for CAC. What... an artist I am.

And #2. I have to lament the embarkation on "my" second research paper. Whoever knew that the academic writing process could be so harrowing and well, "procastination"-inducing. Oh don't get me wrong, I enjoy the process and then of course, the glory of the outcome but awww man, it's so much reading! Blah blah blah blah blah. As I always say, "How to do my PhD like that?!" Okay, I can do this, and I really should get restarted. And, one day when I finally become a Communication (maybe Sociology) Scholar and I'm the one swarming other people's brains with 500 words that explain a simple concept and sentence, I shall look back and laugh hysterically.

And finally, ye olde grande finale #3. I have been playing games like crazy on my DS. So I've finished Cooking Mama, Raving Rabbids and Diner Dash (very difficult stuff that encourages the good and very desirable quality of perseverance), but I can't seem to cook my burgers and fries fast enough in Burger Island! As of now, I have unlocked 26 of 33 recipes, and darn do I want those 7 recipes badly. It's amazing to see how frantic and stressed I get while playing the game and my hands tremble and I add the wrong sauce into my burger which ultimately VOIDS the burger. omg. Anyway, I've decided to save myself a premature heart attack for a bit and have moved on to play Lego Indiana Jones. It's really proving to be a fun and intriguing game with punching, shooting and adventure! (No, contrary to popular belief, I do not have violent tendencies.) I wish I had it on a bigger screen though! And in all complaining frenzy, my Plants vs. Zombies for Mac torrent isn't loading. Lol, imagine if I had to activate my Bootcamp to play games. Yes, other people load Bootcamp so that they can work on AutoCAD, and I load Bootcamp to play Plants vs. Zombies. Way to go, intellectual! :)

Alright, I'm done. That's a load off my shoulders :) Anyway, I also wish that I could be a leaf. Just thought you might like to know :)

a brand new chapter

2010-07-02T18:59:00.002+08:00

It's been terribly long since I last blogged and well, I've decided to start afresh with a "new" blog. Haha I was reading all my past postings and rantings before I set this new blog up and boy were they an eye-opener. Seriously, my comments while reading my past entries were fraught with "was I really like that?!"s and "omg, haha, thank goodness I don't do that now". Not that it's such a bad thing. I was younger, happier, less burdened with real-world stuff and more... well... open. Yes, "open" is the most appropriate word considering I felt almost voyeuristic even looking at my old photographs *shudders* youth knows no limits to public displays of unforgivably rowdy behaviour. and that's all I'm going to say. thankfully, i've grown up since :)

Well, much has happened in the past few months since I last took to the keyboard to pen my thoughts. Some were happier than others but all in all, they were good experiences that marked 21 years of my life on earth. But here's to new happier beginnings and writing off the past as memories that are better kept stashed as digital bits lost in the itnerwebs. Well, the bad ones at least!

In the meantime though, this marks the first of many happy posts about my life thus far and life to come! :)